Control: Random Notes…

Adventures at Mars State University 2.0

I, Daniel Trump, aka Dalton Lewis, wanted to write not an essay but a series of random notes and bullet points about my recent life and society right now.

1. My mind is ridiculous. It still hopes that the Chicago Bears will win eight or nine games this year. They are 4–8 and have five games to go. They will probably end up with five or six wins and fire their coach. I don’t want that to happen. I want their coach to put everything together and turn into a great head coach in the National Football League. I want him to prove wrong all the people who want him to be fired — all the people who wanted him to be fired after four games into the season.
2. I have the same mental conversations in my own head that I had years ago. Will this continue? Will I progress? Will things change? My life doesn’t seem to logically lead to anything new. I really want to make it as a novelist — sell thousands of copies — and then travel and do research for further books around the world. I still just do the same things, over and over, that I did years ago or decades ago. Can I learn and grow? Can I get better at writing? We will find out.
3. The football season is two-thirds done. It seemed to take a thousand years for the off-season to finish this year, and now we’re looking like we’re getting closer to the end of the season before it seems to have started. College football had their conference championships this weekend. Playoff scenarios are being discussed more realistically. Hell, people are beginning to talk about next year’s draft. Also the same damned teams that are good every year are mostly good this year — there is only a little turnaround at the top. I worry about the Bears. Can they get better next year or are they blowing it up for a rebuild? I don’t know.
4. The movie Silent Night was an excellent John Woo action flick. I saw it with my dad. He has Parkinson’s, but there weren’t any handicapped spaces near the theater. He had to walk a ways to the theater with his walker. People are nice and help him and let him in. They are all kind to him. The movie has minimum dialogue and lots of non-dialogue noise. It tells a story in which the audience always knows what is happening even though no dialogue is spoken. Good.
5. San Francisco and Philadelphia are playing football as I am writing this. They are two of the best teams in the NFC. The teams both have depth on the offensive and defensive lines and multiple playmakers on offense. As I am writing this San Francisco is playing their backups because the game is out of hand and they are beating the Eagles so badly. San Francisco played brilliantly after a bad first quarter. They had a balanced offense with both running and passing. Their team, top to bottom, has the best players. They have the best left tackle, Trent Williams.
6. I’ve been trying to read more. I’ve been trying this a lot these past few years. I’m reading one of my old books, American Starfleet Independence. It’s fascinating to read one of my old books and evaluate what I did right and what I did wrong. I think that I created some interesting characters with flaws and that interested the audience. I developed some world-building and lore that made the story more interesting, but the technical details were lacking. My military jargon doesn’t sound right. I have to work on that.
7. Why are there so few advertisements? Why are the same advertisements repeated so many times? I don’t want to purchase the products of a company which has the same annoying ad on several times an hour. I also don’t understand why we watch so many ads and so few of them are new. It’s baffling.
8. I have been shitting nonstop for an hour. I have nothing to say about this. It’s just a plain fact: people go to the bathroom. It’s a fact of life. It happens. Shit happens, people. Sometimes you shit for an hour. I ate sausage quesadillas from a coffee shop that will go anonymous for its protection. That might be the cause. Whatever — I am sick. People get sick. It’s part of life.
9. I listen to Christmas music. I don’t know why. It’s fun and peppy and festive. Christmas is a wonderful time of year — football is played, people get together and give each other gifts, and friends celebrate their friendships. This is a wonderful time of year. Enjoy the holidays, everyone.
10. To reiterate the purpose of the blog one more time — I am a mentally ill man writing about life with a mental illness. I am writing to express what it’s like to be a schizophrenic quiet man in America. Thank you for reading about my life and my experiences. I enjoy writing the blog for all of you who listen and care.

Thanks, and take care, friends.