Control: Space Elf Clown Ninjas vs. Fish People Mecha Armada

I, Dalton Lewis, want the fish people mecha armada to win. I dream of the future, a place in which we will have easy access to everything and will know alien races — and try to learn to get along with them. I wanted to switch to the fish mecha armada with my wargaming miniatures, but a friend told me to stick with an army and get good with it. That’s what I’m doing — sticking to the White Scars and trying to win with them.

My friends and I play strategy games in order to get smarter and better at the games. We want to play well and learn to be more effective with our strategies. At a gathering last weekend at a gaming store many people talked about strategies and discussed what worked best with which army. I just stood there, amazed at the intelligent discussion of tactics and how to win with which army.

I almost switched armies to play the tau — I don’t know why. I don’t know why I write the novels that I do. I guess that I won’t play tau because I don’t want to give up on space marines. I know a lot of people who have real-life decisions that matter. I weigh too much. I should eat more healthy foods, but I don’t. I should practice and memorize what happens in every game I play, but I don’t. I don’t record what works and what doesn’t — which would help me win more games.

Why is it so tempting to try something new? I don’t know. I want to say that I never give up on a good idea, but that probably isn’t true. The tau are an excellent army at one thing: shooting. They shoot at people really, really well, and they don’t do anything else. My white scars have a definite strategy and tactic — the units have individual goals and work in sync with the other units. They don’t just sit there and shoot at the enemy.

That works for writing, too. I should be writing a big fantasy epic but I’m working on a religious novel instead. I’m writing something about a gay middle school student who believes in God and wants to coordinate his feelings as a gay person as opposed to someone who desperately believes in God. I want to evaluate God as a concept in the year 2019, in the new millenium, in an era of smart phones and AI’s.

Why do people not believe in God as often? I mean — I don’t think God exists, but I’m not sure. I’m an agnostic, not some asshole who says that God is a joke that can’t exist. I try to respect every belief.

Thanks, and take care, friends.